A Weary Traveller...

...well, that's what I am today...Yet another instance of shrewd manipulation by 'smart' souls in my firm, has left me gropping in the dark...and forced me into a major introspection exercise...And verify what went wrong...I have realised to my horror that its my value system...there are a few things that I very strongly believe in....honesty, being helpful, sharing knowledge, and most importantly not stepping over someone to reach my goals....

And at various points in time, I have been confronted by people who say "You should learn to operate smartly, you need to do this to be successful"....somehow, this world associates smartness with being crooked and manipulative...these people spend more time trying to 'push down' others rather than pull themselves up...and I used to vehemently deny what these people say, relentlessly hold on to what I believed in and work twice as hard to prove myself...I used to uphold my own success as an example that success need not always come at the cost of sacrificing your values...the road may be tougher...but its still worth it....not 'cos I ever wanted to project a 'holier than thou' attitude....but just for myself....just for me to be sure that being nice doesn't mean being unsuccessful...

But today, I am dejected....and sad....and I feel...maybe all my values are just an unwanted additional baggage in an already uphill climb....